Monthly Archives: December 2009

62: home

I’m home now, so I didn’t think I’d have time to post for the next two weeks. But sisters are gone and parents are asleep, and the need to explore my thoughts drove me to the keyboard. Everything I want … Continue reading

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61: snow

As predicted, it snowed tonight. Snowflakes fell madly, disappearing into an immense sheet of silk on the street. It was beautiful as we walked, and I ran up ahead of my roommate and her friend and made footprints in the … Continue reading

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60: sleep

Today feels like Christmas, and I woke up crying. I’ve never had one of those dreams when you start crying in your sleep then wake up and realize. It’s kind of puzzling, the transition to consciousness and the realization that … Continue reading

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59: going

I’m at home tonight, alone on a Friday night, listening to jazz and doing some research. I’m trying to use the Internet to find out who I am. I don’t think it works so well. Suddenly I feel just like … Continue reading

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58: “what do you do when the pain of being alone in the middle of a crowd is simply too much?”

Someone asked this question today. (Thank you, because I really had nothing to write about and was gonna take th easy way out and sleep tonight. ;]) What do you do then, when you’re so lonely in a crowd? Well, … Continue reading

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57: perspective

I feel so lonely sometimes. It doesn’t take over anymore like it used to. In the past, I used to see loneliness as an endless, soundless black sea. In the middle: me, on a raft. I wasn’t in danger on … Continue reading

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56: picture

Tonight, I turned on jazz and cooked a hearty winter soup under the dim glow of the Christmas lights lining out cupboards. Then I laid out ornaments and decorated the Christmas tree, then folded laundry, and now I just finished … Continue reading

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